Tonight was weigh in! The good news: David lost 12.4 lbs this week!!!! He is fabulous.
The bad news: I gained 2 lbs since my last weighin on Dec 11. I knew it wouldn't be all that good because I knew I had gained over the holidays. But, I was hoping I could at least "maintain." Nope.
The second bad news: AF showed her ugly fucking head today. So, yet another month down. I know that also contributes to my gain this week on the scale, but it still makes me mad. I want to be a mom. I want to go to my weigh in and say "Hey, I just wanted to say see you in 9 months!" and to go to the school and say "I can't do the BL competition 'cause I'll be gaining weight over the next 9 months."
I keep praying and hoping that there's a reason for all of this. I want to be a mom. David wants to be a dad. And all around us, we see "parents" who should have had to get a permit to even have sex without birth control. When will it be our turn?
Enough of the negative. I'll be back with something more positive in a few days - I hope.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Yet another realization...
So, tonight, Biggest Loser started. If you haven't seen it, go watch it. It's an awesome show. Some people don't like it because that's all they do is work out and eat what's put in front of them. But, the transformations and stories are absolutely amazing!
I needed to go to the gym, so after tutoring I went. I made sure I had my head phones so I could start watching. After about 15 minutes, my knee started bugging me a little. Didn't think anything of it. Then, my incision felt like it was burning. I had to stop after 27 minutes. I all but started crying AT THE GYM. Before my surgery, I was able to do an hour on the elliptical AND 15 min on the Stairmaster AND crunches on the ab machine. Now, I'm doing good to make it 30 minutes just on the elliptical - NO abs or stairmaster.
I called David balling. I feel like I'm a bad wife. I'm getting healthy for myself, yes, but I'm doing it for our family too. We want to have a baby, and I need to be healthy for that to happen.
So I did something to help others - the Biggest Loser has a pound for pound challenge. Basically, you just pledge to lose weight until May 1st. Well, duh! I'm gonna be doing that anyways!! So now people who can't afford food will get some because I'm doing what I've been doing for a year.
I realized tonight that, just because I'm thinner than I was a year ago, doesn't mean I'm healthy. "Healthy" is making healthy food choices AND making healthy exercise choices. I guess I thought that being thinner and looking better would mean that I'm healthy. But, seriously, I should be able to do high intensity cardio for more than 30 minutes without feeling like I'm about to die.
I AM going to get back! I AM going to be healthy - food AND exercise. David and I are going to do it together, for ourselves as individuals, for ourselves as a couple, and for ourselves as a someday-expanding family.
I needed to go to the gym, so after tutoring I went. I made sure I had my head phones so I could start watching. After about 15 minutes, my knee started bugging me a little. Didn't think anything of it. Then, my incision felt like it was burning. I had to stop after 27 minutes. I all but started crying AT THE GYM. Before my surgery, I was able to do an hour on the elliptical AND 15 min on the Stairmaster AND crunches on the ab machine. Now, I'm doing good to make it 30 minutes just on the elliptical - NO abs or stairmaster.
I called David balling. I feel like I'm a bad wife. I'm getting healthy for myself, yes, but I'm doing it for our family too. We want to have a baby, and I need to be healthy for that to happen.
So I did something to help others - the Biggest Loser has a pound for pound challenge. Basically, you just pledge to lose weight until May 1st. Well, duh! I'm gonna be doing that anyways!! So now people who can't afford food will get some because I'm doing what I've been doing for a year.
I realized tonight that, just because I'm thinner than I was a year ago, doesn't mean I'm healthy. "Healthy" is making healthy food choices AND making healthy exercise choices. I guess I thought that being thinner and looking better would mean that I'm healthy. But, seriously, I should be able to do high intensity cardio for more than 30 minutes without feeling like I'm about to die.
I AM going to get back! I AM going to be healthy - food AND exercise. David and I are going to do it together, for ourselves as individuals, for ourselves as a couple, and for ourselves as a someday-expanding family.
New Layout
Thanks to my friend, Carla, I found the site Cutest Blog on the Block, and changed my background. Now I'm going to be doing this more often because I get bored!
Let's see... what else is new? David's back at work, and my students came back today. So far, we've both kept our exercise goals of working out at least 3 days a week! We have our first weigh in of the new year tomorrow night. Jan 10th is my one year anniversary at WW!
Nothing new on the baby front - we'll see what happens the next week or so, but I'm not all that hopeful. We've both been taking our pills, so hopefully we get our miracle! (Marci - no fertility specialist yet - we're going to try a couple IUIs with the OB if we can't get knocked up on our own!)
The Biggest Loser starts tonight. I know it's kind of fake - obviously if all I did was work out all day and not eat that much, I would lose a ton of weight fast. But, their stories are inspirational, and I love to see the transformations!
Well, I'm on my way to tutoring and then to the gym. Happy Tuesday!
Let's see... what else is new? David's back at work, and my students came back today. So far, we've both kept our exercise goals of working out at least 3 days a week! We have our first weigh in of the new year tomorrow night. Jan 10th is my one year anniversary at WW!
Nothing new on the baby front - we'll see what happens the next week or so, but I'm not all that hopeful. We've both been taking our pills, so hopefully we get our miracle! (Marci - no fertility specialist yet - we're going to try a couple IUIs with the OB if we can't get knocked up on our own!)
The Biggest Loser starts tonight. I know it's kind of fake - obviously if all I did was work out all day and not eat that much, I would lose a ton of weight fast. But, their stories are inspirational, and I love to see the transformations!
Well, I'm on my way to tutoring and then to the gym. Happy Tuesday!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
First Post of the 2009!
David and I had an awesome time in Kansas City! We stayed at the Sheraton on the Plaza (very nice!), and saw 2 movies (Marley & Me was AWESOME; Tale of Despereaux, not so much). We had dinner at Kona Grill and walked around for a while. Oh, and we went on a carriage ride!
My dad carried on a tradition started last year - New Year's day dinner at our house. He organized and cooked. We just invited. It was nice to see a few people we hadn't seen for a while, and I met one of David's friends from high school and his family.
Our "Gonna Get Pregnant" box showed up while we were gone! I ovulated yesterday (sorry - TMI?), so we're starting the vitamins and hanging out until my next cyle! 2009 WILL bring us a baby!!!
David and I had a long talk on the drive home today. We are both remotivated with our weight loss. He realized he gained most of what he had lost back during our stressful last 6 months. So, when we got home, we sat down and made 2 goals each: 1 weight loss and 1 exercise. David is going to Weigh In tomorrow morning and then again with me on Wednesday. His work schedule is really good this month - every Monday, Tuesday, most Wednesdays, 1/2 Thursdays, and a few Sundays off. We can actually go to the gym and Weigh In together! So excited!!! I put the goals on the fridge so that we will both see them and keep each other accountable!!
My goals: Exercise: 45 min workout at the gym 3 times a week (reward: Wii Active Play "game"). Weight Loss: Down to a Size 12 (reward: a new outfit). Keep me accountable!!!!
We're also getting serious about paying off our CC debts. We are going to try the Snowball method, and in approximately 15 months, we will be debt free. We will still have our 2 car loans, mortgages, and student loans. But, those are much more managable and we can do the Snowball with them too!
2008 has been a long year full of ups and downs, disappointments and joys, tears and laughter, and a whole lot more. Here's to another year!!!!
My dad carried on a tradition started last year - New Year's day dinner at our house. He organized and cooked. We just invited. It was nice to see a few people we hadn't seen for a while, and I met one of David's friends from high school and his family.
Our "Gonna Get Pregnant" box showed up while we were gone! I ovulated yesterday (sorry - TMI?), so we're starting the vitamins and hanging out until my next cyle! 2009 WILL bring us a baby!!!
David and I had a long talk on the drive home today. We are both remotivated with our weight loss. He realized he gained most of what he had lost back during our stressful last 6 months. So, when we got home, we sat down and made 2 goals each: 1 weight loss and 1 exercise. David is going to Weigh In tomorrow morning and then again with me on Wednesday. His work schedule is really good this month - every Monday, Tuesday, most Wednesdays, 1/2 Thursdays, and a few Sundays off. We can actually go to the gym and Weigh In together! So excited!!! I put the goals on the fridge so that we will both see them and keep each other accountable!!
My goals: Exercise: 45 min workout at the gym 3 times a week (reward: Wii Active Play "game"). Weight Loss: Down to a Size 12 (reward: a new outfit). Keep me accountable!!!!
We're also getting serious about paying off our CC debts. We are going to try the Snowball method, and in approximately 15 months, we will be debt free. We will still have our 2 car loans, mortgages, and student loans. But, those are much more managable and we can do the Snowball with them too!
2008 has been a long year full of ups and downs, disappointments and joys, tears and laughter, and a whole lot more. Here's to another year!!!!
Friday, December 26, 2008
Baby Making 101
Well, David and I have made a decision about having a baby. We definitely want one, and we will fight for it with everything we have. Because of the accident, David missed several days of his Clomid, so it's almost like starting over because of the life cycle of sperm. So, while we wait we have a few things on the way:
Supposedly this daily supplement will help David's swimmers. And, I figure if he's taking more stuff, I can too! You never know - I could always have something wrong and we just don't know it yet. So, I'll be a little proactive (along with my daily prenatal that I take).
Predictors will help us narrow down when I'm ovulating. I've used these in the past and they seem to be pretty accurate. Let's just hope that David's work schedule corresponds with my body!
TMI, maybe? But, I've always been on the dry side and this lube is sperm safe - supposedly it actually helps the swimmers get to where they need to go!
These cups are supposed to keep everything up close and make sure none "leak" out.
So, we ordered enough stuff for 3 months. If nothing by then, we'll go back to the OB and see what he can do! We want our baby, and feel like we've been wasting time. Hopefully David's work schedule will cooperate. That, I think, is our biggest obstacle right now. Fingers crossed! And any extra prayers you have floating around would really help! Thanks!
Supposedly this daily supplement will help David's swimmers. And, I figure if he's taking more stuff, I can too! You never know - I could always have something wrong and we just don't know it yet. So, I'll be a little proactive (along with my daily prenatal that I take).
Predictors will help us narrow down when I'm ovulating. I've used these in the past and they seem to be pretty accurate. Let's just hope that David's work schedule corresponds with my body!
TMI, maybe? But, I've always been on the dry side and this lube is sperm safe - supposedly it actually helps the swimmers get to where they need to go!
These cups are supposed to keep everything up close and make sure none "leak" out.
So, we ordered enough stuff for 3 months. If nothing by then, we'll go back to the OB and see what he can do! We want our baby, and feel like we've been wasting time. Hopefully David's work schedule will cooperate. That, I think, is our biggest obstacle right now. Fingers crossed! And any extra prayers you have floating around would really help! Thanks!
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Merry Christmas
Today has always been a day of reflection for me. I'm sitting here, leaning against the wall with Jazzy curled up next to me. My family is here, just talking about random things. David and I were up late last night finishing up our wrapping. Our family joined us for a wonderful day!
I miss my grandparents terribly. No, it's not the first Christmas without them. But, for the first time - I used their salt/pepper shakers, their oven mitts, bathroom towels, and reindeer sheets that I bought Grandpa a few years ago. Our tree isn't the best, but it's ours.
We don't have a baby, or even a pregnancy, but we are in love, and we are together. Even though it's tough, things could be so much different. We are going to work hard to get pregnant this year. Next Christmas, we will hopefully have a baby to see Christmas.
I'll post pictures later. The dogs were treated by Grandma (my mom) with rawhides and toys. We also got them toys, raw hides, and a new bed. They have been chewing for over 2 hours, and our dinner was awesome. The biggest thing for us: we are together.
Merry Christmas to you all. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and spending time with your family. Here's to a wonderful 2009 and many more years and dreams to come.........
I miss my grandparents terribly. No, it's not the first Christmas without them. But, for the first time - I used their salt/pepper shakers, their oven mitts, bathroom towels, and reindeer sheets that I bought Grandpa a few years ago. Our tree isn't the best, but it's ours.
We don't have a baby, or even a pregnancy, but we are in love, and we are together. Even though it's tough, things could be so much different. We are going to work hard to get pregnant this year. Next Christmas, we will hopefully have a baby to see Christmas.
I'll post pictures later. The dogs were treated by Grandma (my mom) with rawhides and toys. We also got them toys, raw hides, and a new bed. They have been chewing for over 2 hours, and our dinner was awesome. The biggest thing for us: we are together.
Merry Christmas to you all. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and spending time with your family. Here's to a wonderful 2009 and many more years and dreams to come.........
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Cherry-Almond Biscotti
Another recipe! This one is really good. The only thing was that it was more crumbly than I thought it should be, but it tastes good!
POINTS® Value: 2
Servings: 22
Preparation Time: 11 min
Cooking Time: 50 min
Ingredients
2 cup(s) all-purpose flour
1 cup(s) sugar
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp table salt
1 large egg(s)
2 large egg white(s)
1 1/2 tsp almond extract
1 tsp vanilla extract
1/2 cup(s) dried cherries, chopped
1/3 cup(s) slivered almonds, toasted
1 spray(s) cooking spray
Instructions
* Preheat oven to 350°F.
* Lightly spoon flour into dry measuring cups; level with a knife. Combine flour and next four ingredients in a large bowl. Combine egg, egg whites, almond extract and vanilla; add to flour mixture, stirring until well blended. Stir in cherries and almonds (dough will be dry and crumbly). Turn dough out onto a lightly floured surface; knead five to six times. Divide dough in half. Shape each portion into an 8-inch-long roll. Place rolls 4 to 5 inches apart on a baking sheet coated with cooking spray; flatten each roll to 1-inch thickness.
* Bake at 350°F for 30 minutes. Remove rolls from baking sheet; cool 10 minutes on a wire rack. Reduce oven temperature to 325°F. Cut each roll diagonally into 1⁄2-inch slices. Place slices, cut sides down, on baking sheets coated with cooking spray; bake 10 minutes. Turn cookies over; bake an additional 10 minutes. Remove from baking sheets and cool completely on wire rack. Yield: 22 servings (serving size: 1 cookie).
POINTS® Value: 2
Servings: 22
Preparation Time: 11 min
Cooking Time: 50 min
Ingredients
2 cup(s) all-purpose flour
1 cup(s) sugar
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp table salt
1 large egg(s)
2 large egg white(s)
1 1/2 tsp almond extract
1 tsp vanilla extract
1/2 cup(s) dried cherries, chopped
1/3 cup(s) slivered almonds, toasted
1 spray(s) cooking spray
Instructions
* Preheat oven to 350°F.
* Lightly spoon flour into dry measuring cups; level with a knife. Combine flour and next four ingredients in a large bowl. Combine egg, egg whites, almond extract and vanilla; add to flour mixture, stirring until well blended. Stir in cherries and almonds (dough will be dry and crumbly). Turn dough out onto a lightly floured surface; knead five to six times. Divide dough in half. Shape each portion into an 8-inch-long roll. Place rolls 4 to 5 inches apart on a baking sheet coated with cooking spray; flatten each roll to 1-inch thickness.
* Bake at 350°F for 30 minutes. Remove rolls from baking sheet; cool 10 minutes on a wire rack. Reduce oven temperature to 325°F. Cut each roll diagonally into 1⁄2-inch slices. Place slices, cut sides down, on baking sheets coated with cooking spray; bake 10 minutes. Turn cookies over; bake an additional 10 minutes. Remove from baking sheets and cool completely on wire rack. Yield: 22 servings (serving size: 1 cookie).
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